The same old thing.

Yes, I'm in tears once again. Crying as hard as the other time when I'm in school. Does anyone know how I feel? I doubt there is. I thought you're the only one that knows me best. I guess I was way too wrong. Yeah yeah, you go around posting on the social networks of everything. But, how do I actually feel? Do you know? I doubt you know. When I need you so much, I doubt you could tell. Everytime you post such things, my friends will ask me, and when they ask, I just feel like running off to a corner and start crying again. Its like, I feel like just dying off. I read your twitter, I read your fb, I read your SMSes, I cry even more. I always ask myself this question. Will this relationship last? I believe many people out there must be wondering as well. And when people ask me, I will just say, I'm sure it will. And now, I'm wondering, I might be over-confident. I don't know. Everything is so drifting apart. I tried to stop the tears. But its just too hard. My one and only wish now, I really hope you'll change better. Always remember, actions speaks louder than words. While you change, I'll be by you, supporting you. I don't want you to be like how you are right now. No matter will our relationship lasts, I hope you'll change. That's all I'm asking. I don't mind losing you just for you to be a normal human. And not a crazy one. That's the sacrifice I can make.

Its a new year and things aren't getting well.

Yes, I have not been blogging much.
Can say that I'm really busy nowadays.
Its a new year, 2011.
Even before the start of the new year, everthing was already hell.

This few days that passed had really been a hell ride. And I believe there's more to come. Someone tell me what to do. I really don't know what to do anymore. You have a problem with my cca, fine. I don't blame you for anything. But, just stop doing all the stupid things. Last week you went wild shouting all around. This week, you went round saying you cut our banner when you didn't even do that! Can you stop it please? I know, you may think you will take up all the resposibility. But have you every thought of how I will feel? Its worse than the hell. People complain to me, fine, I ignore. But, PLEASE STOP ALL THE STUPID NONSENSE. Yeah, I know, you have your own principle. Just let things be luh. Human are just that realistic. Whatever they do, reflects on what type of person they are. So as long you do your things, they do their things, nothing is gonna happen. Don't create anymore troubles and that is all I'm asking for. I know you're trying your best now. I know, I know. I can see. But yeah, I'm still upset over today. But I will get over it. I believe I will. Tomorow is orientation already. I pray and hope nothing is gonna happen.

I love you, baby.
Promise to never break all your promises.
Always remember, I will never give up on you.
Even though I maybe crying all the time, but I have never gave up.
So, you have to stay strong with me as well! You are determined to change. I know.